Ouch!

I do actually try to make the best of things, but somedays it is impossible to make things better that what they are.  Take last weekend for example, had a cyst removed from my back wasn't too bad at the time but then it really started to hurt in the evening! Not a lot you can do with that!

Saturday went to work better than staying at home and had other people to get me tea! Love Tea! All shapes and forms! Had a great night at 2nd Bff's house with 1st Bff even if wingee winer who would rather I was never there was in attendance! Again not alot you can do when someone invites themselves ( well we could have turned the lights off and hid! My preferance!)

Sunday good game had nice time with my friends and babies, then get to the pub and of course the Ex Husband and his girlfriend are there, was not in the best mood and the last time I saw them got trollied and upset lost something like 2 hours due to alcohol! Again not a lot I can do about it as every one thinks the lying cheating b*!$tard is wonderful, wish I had told them all what he used to say about them sometimes!

Sometimes I wish I had never married him, but then they say that the path that we are on has already been written and that to get where we are we have to follow a certain path!  I wish life was a little easier rather than being so far up and then so far down!

A bit like the cyst I have had removed, had to be done nearly sick having it removed, hurt a lot for a week, then had the stitches out and it hurt even more!  Tried to touch the scab today and I nearly passed out not nice as found I had a hole in my back, but at the end of the day you go through the pain because you are better off without!

Ronan Keatings story

I have just watched Ronan Keating on Piers Morgans life stories, despite the mistake he made with his wife he is an amazing man!

I am a fan of Boyzone, I wouldn't say I was mad over them but I love their music and think Ronan is a talented artist!  It effects me every time he talks about Steven Gately, even now he wells up just thinking about him and it makes me extremely sad.  It is one of the events in your life where you remember hearing it on the news and not believing it!  Seeing the whole band like that and the documentary they made afterwards always has me in floods.

To me it was a real shame someone so young lost their life like that, things like that make you live life larger and bigger and like everyday is your last!

Ronan was a very naughty boy and cheated on his wife, I understand her point of view more than his from experience but he tried to get it back which is more than my experience.  It is a real shame they couldn't make it work and I think you could see in his eyes some real regret!  I think he is holding a lot back and although he said he is happier there is something I can't quite put my finger on which makes me think he isn't!

I hope he gets though this time in his life and there is light in his life!

Sometimes I hate work

I work some seriously funny shifts and just come of 5 days of 11.5 hour shift, probably the worst shift of the whole pattern you need 7 days to get over it.  Days are also so political the boss is a numpty likes to throw his weight around and he has a lot of weight to throw around.  I'm not someone who judges people but he thinks the worst of everyone! I'm sorry but if you want respect you treat with respect!!!

We used to be a very tight happy unit, yes there were things to improve but you know when is there not!

The cracks are definately begining to show, everyone is turning to drink! Even people who don't drink!

The good thing now is that I now have 4 clear days off, tomorrow I have to take the car in to fix my reg lights early! Boo wish I could stay in bed!

Plan for the rest of the week is to do nothing but watch my current obsession "Bondi Rescue"

My faves are Bacon, Corey, Hoppo, Reidy and Whippet.  Their bromaces make me laugh so much!!!